I've been thinking a lot lately. No surprise there. So here is more a less a dump of what has been on my mind. I've been feeling very triggered by my recovery meetings for some time now. Which I know is me and how I am choosing to show up at those meetings. I've stopped… Continue reading Vomit Diary – 06/09/22
Category: Random thoughts
It is OK to be smart in recovery
There are certain one liners in 12-step recovery that absolutely drive me crazy. My least favorite is that “you can be too smart to get sober but not too dumb.” I understand the overall meaning of this. It is about ego and being humble. However, the context in which it is often used is to… Continue reading It is OK to be smart in recovery
Quick Check-In
I've been off Facebook for more than a week, Slowly detoxing,Luckily I've had distractions,I've fallen off with my writing,Even though I probably need that now more than ever,I felt very lonely today,I found myself on several occasions in daydreams of connection,The real stuff,Not the low-calorie substitute,It is bizarre having a house full of people and… Continue reading Quick Check-In
A Good Pain
I am up way later than I should be and I will most likely regret this tomorrow. However, I just finished watching Ben is Back on Netflix and I am a bit wound up. This led me to ponder why people choose to re-watch sad or emotionally painful things. I was wondering if it is… Continue reading A Good Pain
Hard Day
Hard days end with me not flossing. I've been flossing since I was old enough to do it successfully. And it is probably the only habit I've managed to do almost perfectly most of my life. So, if there is ever a day when I don't floss, that was a hard day. Today I did… Continue reading Hard Day
Overwhelmed
Have you ever given yourself a panic attack? Yeah, I did that tonight. I sometimes want to take on the world. It is utterly exhausting the things I want to be good at. Exhausting. I started typing every day weeks ago because I want to be a good writer and eventually write a book. And… Continue reading Overwhelmed
Bubbles Bring Me Peace
Walking through life with rejection as a filter is rough,No return text, cancel of plans, not invited, sideways glance,Second questioning what I've done or said, Not being enough,Then I remember the bubbles...A wonderful lady once told me that everyone is in their own bubbles,On their own journeys,Sometimes your bubble and their bubble collide,But all bubbles… Continue reading Bubbles Bring Me Peace
Seeking a Feeling
The great adventure,I can see it when I look beyond my window,Cloudy skies over new horizons,Crowded dark lit rooms filled with interesting people,When I think of these scenes I realize I've already experienced them before,That is when it occurs, that it isn't a place I am seeking but a feeling,Perhaps that is all we ever… Continue reading Seeking a Feeling
Human Emotions
Emotions are interesting. To be going along and all of the sudden a pang of pain from nowhere right in the center of your chest. Because we rarely talk about these experiences it makes me wonder how often this happens to other people. For me, I'd say it happens at least 4 to 5 times… Continue reading Human Emotions
Words Are Magic
The best thing about writing is you can build anything with words. They are yours and like boards put together for sale, others can choose to procure or ignore the retail. When you write, you can be outlandish and egotistic. Or factual and realistic. You can be sappy and romantic, professing love that will never… Continue reading Words Are Magic
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