My thirty heart yearns for expression,Burdens of responsibility, stress, and depression,Cause me to depart,From the things that hydrate my heart,Then I am reminded,Given new sight after being blinded,By some experience, direct or indirect,Called back by some effect,Perhaps some movie on Netflix,Bring fresh words to my fingers tips. Balance from chaos through little white pills,At a… Continue reading Mental Health and Art
Category: Mental Health
Empathize
I am sitting here and enjoying the last hour of my last day off before my vacation in April. I just got done watching the new Avatar movie. My mind is a bit all over the place, but I thought I would try to capture some of my thoughts on the white screen. I anticipated… Continue reading Empathize
Check On Your Friends
What if I'm fine didn't mean "okay" in words,Perhaps the truth doesn't come in verbs,My perceptions often creates a hostile attribution bias,Where my brain becomes overwhelmed by lies,Suddenly my environment no longer feels secure,A mirage of rejection and disdain begins to obscure,The view of the people I've known for years,Their fondness for me disappears. Have… Continue reading Check On Your Friends
Post Hurricane Ian Update
I thought I should write a post-Hurricane Ian update blog. Since I am writing this, I think it is safe to say I survived unless it is the end of the world, and there is a zombie apocalypse, and instead of eating the flesh of the living, I write blogs. I don't mean to jest,… Continue reading Post Hurricane Ian Update
Filters
I've been thinking a lot about filters. A filter is a lens that you see the world through. That is perhaps why even our own account of events is always biased, as we are always viewing it through our own lens, which is different than someone else's and different than pure reality. Granted, whatever lens… Continue reading Filters
Non Binary
Well, good way too early morning to you all. I woke up and could not get back to sleep. Partly because I was hungry but also because I had way too many thoughts in my head. Therefore, here we are, me with a lean cuisine cheese pizza and my laptop at 2:30 am ET. The… Continue reading Non Binary
Bad Dream
I haven't written in a while but I woke up from such a bad dream I thought I should share it. So I've been waiting over a month to go back to my therapist to sort out some shit I've been going through. In my dream it was the day of the appointment and when… Continue reading Bad Dream
Painful Thoughts – Day 2
Well, yesterday was extremely painful. I allowed the stories in my head to pretty much ruin the whole day. And unfortunately, I am still not in a better place today. Ugh, I am so frustrated, hurt, and angry. A lot of anger. Let's get you caught up, so I shared my blog about my thoughts… Continue reading Painful Thoughts – Day 2
Transference and Jealousy
I've been trying to process my feelings and learn from them. Not to judge me but to see what these things are telling me and how I might grow from them. I've been seeing the same therapist now for almost 7 years. During that time I have seen how that relationship and my feelings about… Continue reading Transference and Jealousy
Love Of All Things Therapy
Love me some therapy, The doctoral-type notes she takes make me feel like what I have to say is important,The sense of comfort feeling that the wisdom of some solution lies on that pad, Fascinated as I watch how professionally and nonchalantly, she directs the flow of conversation traffic,Appreciating the significant skill and years of… Continue reading Love Of All Things Therapy
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