Love me some therapy, The doctoral-type notes she takes make me feel like what I have to say is important,The sense of comfort feeling that the wisdom of some solution lies on that pad, Fascinated as I watch how professionally and nonchalantly, she directs the flow of conversation traffic,Appreciating the significant skill and years of… Continue reading Love Of All Things Therapy
Vomit Diary – 06/09/22
I've been thinking a lot lately. No surprise there. So here is more a less a dump of what has been on my mind. I've been feeling very triggered by my recovery meetings for some time now. Which I know is me and how I am choosing to show up at those meetings. I've stopped… Continue reading Vomit Diary – 06/09/22
Week Ahead – 06/05/22
Another very busy week ahead. Especially work-wise. We get early access to the system we are migrating to and I have a bunch of training and documentation I need to do. It will be exhausting but also rewarding. Monday, today, after work, I need to get a head start on my assignment for this week.… Continue reading Week Ahead – 06/05/22
It is OK to be smart in recovery
There are certain one liners in 12-step recovery that absolutely drive me crazy. My least favorite is that “you can be too smart to get sober but not too dumb.” I understand the overall meaning of this. It is about ego and being humble. However, the context in which it is often used is to… Continue reading It is OK to be smart in recovery
Quick Check-In
I've been off Facebook for more than a week, Slowly detoxing,Luckily I've had distractions,I've fallen off with my writing,Even though I probably need that now more than ever,I felt very lonely today,I found myself on several occasions in daydreams of connection,The real stuff,Not the low-calorie substitute,It is bizarre having a house full of people and… Continue reading Quick Check-In
A Good Pain
I am up way later than I should be and I will most likely regret this tomorrow. However, I just finished watching Ben is Back on Netflix and I am a bit wound up. This led me to ponder why people choose to re-watch sad or emotionally painful things. I was wondering if it is… Continue reading A Good Pain
Week Ahead – 05/23/22
This week the key is to just not lose my mind. This is my last almost full week at work before my week off work. We are 20 some days away from this big system launch at work, so it is a bit insane, to say the least. Each day is completely full. On top… Continue reading Week Ahead – 05/23/22
Burning Inside
Unrequited love is a terribly painful thing,Don't even know why I entertain the thought,Nothing is ever going to happen,1200 miles between us is not enough,She adds her arms to extend the well and further push me away,Why do I feel so unworthy that I chase someone anyway,Insatiable urge perhaps to tan my own hide,Each attempt… Continue reading Burning Inside
Hard Day
Hard days end with me not flossing. I've been flossing since I was old enough to do it successfully. And it is probably the only habit I've managed to do almost perfectly most of my life. So, if there is ever a day when I don't floss, that was a hard day. Today I did… Continue reading Hard Day
Democrats are sexualizing our children.
These were the words spoken to me within 20 min of a 2 1/2 hr car ride to an event with someone who I had known for years. Shortly followed by, she doesn't want her son in second grade to have to think about whether he is a boy or a girl or reading books… Continue reading Democrats are sexualizing our children.
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