Lately, a lot of realizations have been going on while I sleep. Last night I had a dream that I was searching for a gas station with working pumps and at another point in the dream, I was looking for my dog. I realized that I have a lot of dreams where I am searching… Continue reading Losing Things
Category: Writing Exercise
Quick Thoughts – 07/26
Working on a journal my therapist recommended shadow work. It will supposedly help me with my attachment issues. Today's journal prompt was about describing my relationship with my mother as a child. The problem is I don't remember. I can remember a few specific events. But in general, I remember very little of my childhood.… Continue reading Quick Thoughts – 07/26
Week Ahead – 07/25/22
Good Monday Morning all! I survived the weekend. My therapist informed me yesterday that she thinks my meds are off. Probably so. Going to try to get in to see my med doctor this week. This always makes me anxious. Last time I upped my Effexor I had increased suicide ideation. And I can't up… Continue reading Week Ahead – 07/25/22
Painful Thoughts – Day 2
Well, yesterday was extremely painful. I allowed the stories in my head to pretty much ruin the whole day. And unfortunately, I am still not in a better place today. Ugh, I am so frustrated, hurt, and angry. A lot of anger. Let's get you caught up, so I shared my blog about my thoughts… Continue reading Painful Thoughts – Day 2
Random Thoughts – Daily Writing (07/23)
Well, I am back in school, 3 week breaks go fast. I've decided I should get back to some daily writing if possible to dust the rust off it. I've had trouble sleeping the last two days. Last night I woke up at 2 am with a very vivid thought about a time in my… Continue reading Random Thoughts – Daily Writing (07/23)
A Good Pain
I am up way later than I should be and I will most likely regret this tomorrow. However, I just finished watching Ben is Back on Netflix and I am a bit wound up. This led me to ponder why people choose to re-watch sad or emotionally painful things. I was wondering if it is… Continue reading A Good Pain
Burning Inside
Unrequited love is a terribly painful thing,Don't even know why I entertain the thought,Nothing is ever going to happen,1200 miles between us is not enough,She adds her arms to extend the well and further push me away,Why do I feel so unworthy that I chase someone anyway,Insatiable urge perhaps to tan my own hide,Each attempt… Continue reading Burning Inside
Hard Day
Hard days end with me not flossing. I've been flossing since I was old enough to do it successfully. And it is probably the only habit I've managed to do almost perfectly most of my life. So, if there is ever a day when I don't floss, that was a hard day. Today I did… Continue reading Hard Day
Overwhelmed
Have you ever given yourself a panic attack? Yeah, I did that tonight. I sometimes want to take on the world. It is utterly exhausting the things I want to be good at. Exhausting. I started typing every day weeks ago because I want to be a good writer and eventually write a book. And… Continue reading Overwhelmed
Seeking a Feeling
The great adventure,I can see it when I look beyond my window,Cloudy skies over new horizons,Crowded dark lit rooms filled with interesting people,When I think of these scenes I realize I've already experienced them before,That is when it occurs, that it isn't a place I am seeking but a feeling,Perhaps that is all we ever… Continue reading Seeking a Feeling
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