Well, I figured I should type out my week ahead and give an update since the last time I've written. First, I am now on my 3rd new mood stabilizer. The Topamax was no good, and then she had me on something else which I already forgot the name of, and now I am on… Continue reading Update and Week Ahead 09/06/22
Category: Random thoughts
Bad Dream
I haven't written in a while but I woke up from such a bad dream I thought I should share it. So I've been waiting over a month to go back to my therapist to sort out some shit I've been going through. In my dream it was the day of the appointment and when… Continue reading Bad Dream
Representation
Over the last week, I have been overwhelmed with joy in all the LGBTQIA+ representation on television. Television is one of my favorite artistic mediums to indulge in. The new season of Locke & Key came out on Netflix this week. In this season, in a major series, they have a whole episode dedicated to… Continue reading Representation
Losing Things
Lately, a lot of realizations have been going on while I sleep. Last night I had a dream that I was searching for a gas station with working pumps and at another point in the dream, I was looking for my dog. I realized that I have a lot of dreams where I am searching… Continue reading Losing Things
Quick Thoughts – 07/26
Working on a journal my therapist recommended shadow work. It will supposedly help me with my attachment issues. Today's journal prompt was about describing my relationship with my mother as a child. The problem is I don't remember. I can remember a few specific events. But in general, I remember very little of my childhood.… Continue reading Quick Thoughts – 07/26
Painful Thoughts – Day 2
Well, yesterday was extremely painful. I allowed the stories in my head to pretty much ruin the whole day. And unfortunately, I am still not in a better place today. Ugh, I am so frustrated, hurt, and angry. A lot of anger. Let's get you caught up, so I shared my blog about my thoughts… Continue reading Painful Thoughts – Day 2
Random Thoughts – Daily Writing (07/23)
Well, I am back in school, 3 week breaks go fast. I've decided I should get back to some daily writing if possible to dust the rust off it. I've had trouble sleeping the last two days. Last night I woke up at 2 am with a very vivid thought about a time in my… Continue reading Random Thoughts – Daily Writing (07/23)
Transference and Jealousy
I've been trying to process my feelings and learn from them. Not to judge me but to see what these things are telling me and how I might grow from them. I've been seeing the same therapist now for almost 7 years. During that time I have seen how that relationship and my feelings about… Continue reading Transference and Jealousy
Sharing
Making mistakes is so hard to digest. So little compassion I provide to myself. A recent misstep at work haunts me. Tossing about spreadsheets in my sleep and waking to it fresh and relived on my mind. Work has been extremely stressful this last month. Due to personal issues, I've been unable to swim for… Continue reading Sharing
Love Of All Things Therapy
Love me some therapy, The doctoral-type notes she takes make me feel like what I have to say is important,The sense of comfort feeling that the wisdom of some solution lies on that pad, Fascinated as I watch how professionally and nonchalantly, she directs the flow of conversation traffic,Appreciating the significant skill and years of… Continue reading Love Of All Things Therapy
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