It took me almost two years after getting sober to allow my therapist to convince me that I needed to be medicated. And boy did I. My emotions were so extreme and I was so sensitive to everything. It literally felt like I was an open nerve. I was in so much pain. Finding the… Continue reading Recent Mental Health Adjustments
Category: Mental Health
Mental Illness Returns
Healthy me seems to have a lack of words,When I get sick they emerge,I can finally purge. Pouring over me like the Atlantic,Flooding the Titanic,The words can be spoken,Once I am broken. Mania defeats,I have to retreat,Pinch it in,Like a turtle poking out my ass,Else I wipe,And be covered in my own mess......I digress. I'd… Continue reading Mental Illness Returns
Integrity
I'd never given much though to the meaning behind the word integrity. I knew integrity meant having morals and values and abiding by them. However, in reading, "Further Along, the Road Less Traveled," By Scott M. Peck. M.D., he provides a more complete definition which is, "the state of being whole and undivided." Basically having… Continue reading Integrity
Living with Inverse Acne
I've decided to write about the disease that I have had since I was 15. The one that has tormented me and left me scarred mentally, emotionally, and physically. I've just recently begun trying to open up about the condition. Today I wrote a blog on shame and one of the ways out of shame… Continue reading Living with Inverse Acne
Online Shaming During the Pandemic.
I woke up this morning feeling very heavy with the amount of shaming that has been occurring over the last several weeks on social media platforms regarding the pandemic. People expressing their opinions, judgements, and jokes about others regarding toilet paper, travel, social distancing, and now wearing masks. Online shaming has in itself become a… Continue reading Online Shaming During the Pandemic.
How Bizarre
Sometimes my mind gets so full with awareness of how bizarres it is, this world we live in. Take corporations for example. People make up some service, give it a label, put shiny things around it, logos, websites, business cards, marketing. Then with a dash - include your "important" title, CEO, and Co-founder, your name.… Continue reading How Bizarre
Boundaries
What are their motives? If you learn to listen, they will be made clear, The healthier I am, The more I can hear. Most, simply doing the best they can, Taking this into account, As I observe from where I am, Each person trying to meet their needs, Even if they are unaware of what… Continue reading Boundaries
Sleepy Thoughts
How amazing it feels to not be where you were and when someone is capable of taking you fresh from where you are. How long past impressions linger within others is unfortunate. We like to put people in categories based on our past experiences. We are so flawed as humans, seeing things from where we… Continue reading Sleepy Thoughts
Come For a Walk With Me
Walking with my dogs, Sun beating down, Shadows from tree leaves dance on the ground, I have to pee Ok...I am a block from the house, Harping on this will not make me arrive any faster, Breathe, do my mantra, "I am worthy of love and connection." I need to clean the bathroom, it is… Continue reading Come For a Walk With Me
Morning Meditation
The dog barks from somewhere outside, High pitched shrill barks, A small dog for certain, Perhaps a Maltese... Clearly unhappy for being left, Is this an irritation? Or an opportunity to become present? The cooler which contains the 5-gallon jug of water, Buzzes and rattles as it seeks to cool the water, Smacking it will… Continue reading Morning Meditation
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