Happy Friday Morning everyone! We made it through the week. Although I have a tough weekend of homework ahead. A very hard assignment this weekend. We are going to think positive though! I can do it! I started a new medication last night, Topamax, 25 mg twice a day to start. This is on top… Continue reading Daily Writing – 08/05/22
Morning Thoughts – 08/4/22
Grateful it is Thursday. It has been very stressful at work lately. Just lots to do, too much really, and in general not enough time to do it. I have a crazy-ass hard assignment that is due on Sunday. But then, every assignment, when you are going for your Ph.D., isn't particularly easy. I found… Continue reading Morning Thoughts – 08/4/22
Act As If
I woke up today feeling motivated. Motivated and hopeful that I am capable of accomplishing the things I want to accomplish. Motivated in the power of belief. The things I am studying right now in school are social psychology theories and interventions. The one I'm particularly interested in at the moment and am applying in… Continue reading Act As If
The Tale of Dirty Laundry
In a small rural town in the middle of central Florida there were two families, the Smiths, and the Jones, who had a long history of antagonism towards each other. The two families had competing Dry Cleaning businesses that faced each other in the center of town. There was an ongoing debate on which of… Continue reading The Tale of Dirty Laundry
Losing Things
Lately, a lot of realizations have been going on while I sleep. Last night I had a dream that I was searching for a gas station with working pumps and at another point in the dream, I was looking for my dog. I realized that I have a lot of dreams where I am searching… Continue reading Losing Things
Quick Thoughts – 07/26
Working on a journal my therapist recommended shadow work. It will supposedly help me with my attachment issues. Today's journal prompt was about describing my relationship with my mother as a child. The problem is I don't remember. I can remember a few specific events. But in general, I remember very little of my childhood.… Continue reading Quick Thoughts – 07/26
Week Ahead – 07/25/22
Good Monday Morning all! I survived the weekend. My therapist informed me yesterday that she thinks my meds are off. Probably so. Going to try to get in to see my med doctor this week. This always makes me anxious. Last time I upped my Effexor I had increased suicide ideation. And I can't up… Continue reading Week Ahead – 07/25/22
Painful Thoughts – Day 2
Well, yesterday was extremely painful. I allowed the stories in my head to pretty much ruin the whole day. And unfortunately, I am still not in a better place today. Ugh, I am so frustrated, hurt, and angry. A lot of anger. Let's get you caught up, so I shared my blog about my thoughts… Continue reading Painful Thoughts – Day 2
Random Thoughts – Daily Writing (07/23)
Well, I am back in school, 3 week breaks go fast. I've decided I should get back to some daily writing if possible to dust the rust off it. I've had trouble sleeping the last two days. Last night I woke up at 2 am with a very vivid thought about a time in my… Continue reading Random Thoughts – Daily Writing (07/23)
Transference and Jealousy
I've been trying to process my feelings and learn from them. Not to judge me but to see what these things are telling me and how I might grow from them. I've been seeing the same therapist now for almost 7 years. During that time I have seen how that relationship and my feelings about… Continue reading Transference and Jealousy
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