This heavy sheath, Draped around my shoulders, Pressing against the curves on my hips, Pulling on the skin beneath my arms, Tugging on my second chin, Hate oozing out from within. Unable to perfect my goals, Self-discipline steps out for a meal, Dictating how I feel, Not giving up, But not getting there. As my… Continue reading Future Me
Faith and Fear
The topic tonight was Belief and Doubt or Faith and Fear. The lady introducing the topic altered the way I look at these two things. She discussed how she heard a speaker once talk about how these two things were inextricably linked. Which is totally contradictory to how it has always been presented to me… Continue reading Faith and Fear
Splash of Humility
The pool, arrogantly calm, Judging the sea for its waves, Until someone jumps in, Turbulent and humbled again.
Abusive Relationship With My Mind
I'd been enmeshed in a co-dependent mess, It was like I didn't even exist, We were a dysfunctional whole, Wherever I went, there you were, Until a small insignificant moment made me see the toxicity of our relationship, It wasn't the mental or emotional abuse I'd enured for years, Nor the isolation, insecurity, fear, or… Continue reading Abusive Relationship With My Mind
Destination You
Drinking in the richness of you, My thirst never quenched, Fluent in sweet sunny gazes, Interpreting your heart from your kisses, Spinning in orbit around your finger, Gravity pulling me close, Landing my lips on your surface, My path lit by the stars in my eyes, As I travel the journey of your past, Exploring… Continue reading Destination You
Energy Storm
A thick foggy haze of fuck you, surrounds me, The forecast had not predicted disturbed energy, Perhaps there was a red sky this morning, Or other signs that this was forming, The disease under my skin, My allergies of people kicking in, Itching to run, My emotional clouds smothering the sun, Zero visibility through this… Continue reading Energy Storm
Drowning
Struggling to stay standing, As the waves come crashing in, You stand nearby unaffected, The undercurrent begins pulling me down, You start to move away to where the water is warmer, Perhaps that is safest, Finally aware of the danger you face, With this flesh eating bacteria invading your space. Drowning rarely looks like you'd… Continue reading Drowning
I wish…
I wish the world was a different place, Where we didn't feel the need to compete, Put downs and social media posts weren't used to feel more complete, Gossip and judgement wasn't a way to belong, That it wasn't more important to be right, than to be wrong, Where egos weren't constantly on the defensive,… Continue reading I wish…
Loss of Words
My heart might explode, Wanting to express how I feel, Yet none of the words seem right, A picture is worth a thousand words, Yet like a cell phone photo of the moon, It pales in comparison, Perhaps it can only be said through touch, But then I might say too much.
Eternal
No offspring to carry me on, Once I die, what's left of me is gone. Two certainties in life, death and taxes. The fear of not being remembered, A struggle unique to humankind. A tree worries not what happens when it's time to feed the worms. The tree thinks not about the futility of life,… Continue reading Eternal
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