The quintessential recovery method from addiction, I think it is fair to say has not yet been discovered. Those who would disagree are generally those that have succeeded in achieving recovery using a specific method. If it worked for me, it should work for everyone, right? It is easy to begin judging others who don't… Continue reading Vomit Diaries – The Quintessential Recovery Method
Vomit Diaries – Lost Connection
I am sure there are millions of people whose mothers are alive but never call them. I am certain I am not alone. I asked my sister, "does mom ever call you?" She said, "if she needs something...like when they still had a house here and needed me to turn their water on." And yet,… Continue reading Vomit Diaries – Lost Connection
Vomit Diaries – Why are we all floating?
My brain was in space this morning, figuratively. Seeking answers to these types of questions from friends. Needless to say, I ended up taking the day off work, my mind was not in the type of space for work. I needed a day off anyway. The day prior I decided to challenge my fit 80… Continue reading Vomit Diaries – Why are we all floating?
Vomit Diaries – Bias
I recently realized that my ability to write poetry or even blog for that matter only exists when I am in pain. This is a bit disheartening indeed as I enjoyed that method of expression. My med doctor suggested basically acting as if and writing anyway. These blogs then are my attempt really just to… Continue reading Vomit Diaries – Bias
Oh, there you are, HP!
I woke up this morning with a headache and a decision to make. So I made it. Sometimes I can make a series of decisions that start to make me question myself. The dreaded question, "Am I regressing?" It can take just a few small moments for me to start to doubt my self-worth. Much… Continue reading Oh, there you are, HP!
Why I Only Talk About Weather…
The conversation we had today, I more or less just listened to you talk about your life. You seemed fine to hear about how my neighbor cut down their tree or that they are building apartments at the end of my street. However, when I tried to turn the subject to my career, current or… Continue reading Why I Only Talk About Weather…
Recent Mental Health Adjustments
It took me almost two years after getting sober to allow my therapist to convince me that I needed to be medicated. And boy did I. My emotions were so extreme and I was so sensitive to everything. It literally felt like I was an open nerve. I was in so much pain. Finding the… Continue reading Recent Mental Health Adjustments
Mental Illness Returns
Healthy me seems to have a lack of words,When I get sick they emerge,I can finally purge. Pouring over me like the Atlantic,Flooding the Titanic,The words can be spoken,Once I am broken. Mania defeats,I have to retreat,Pinch it in,Like a turtle poking out my ass,Else I wipe,And be covered in my own mess......I digress. I'd… Continue reading Mental Illness Returns
Getting What You Want Requires Doing What You Don’t
Getting what you want is hard. Who knew how important the things our parents made us do growing up were. Things like teaching us to not quit or doing chores. Things that teach you the very hard lesson that to reach major goals requires you to do things you don't want to do, consistently. Twice… Continue reading Getting What You Want Requires Doing What You Don’t
Protected: Not Loving Myself Severely Damaged Me
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