The woman resided to her comfortable space, Secure within its walls of protection it provides, Her energy depleted, From the internal war she fights, Often left feeling defeated. She attends to her devoir as a worker, a student, a member within recovery, Heavy is the feeling of everything, Putting on deodorant takes all but her… Continue reading Depression
Category: Mental Health
Why I Write…
I am a 36 introverted divorcee who lives alone with two dogs. I work from home. I go to school online. I have very few friends. Writing is what helps keep me sane. There are days where the only one who hears my words are my dogs and this screen as I type them. I… Continue reading Why I Write…
Compassion?
Where do you find compassion? Where does it hide? Why do I have so little? Why am I so mean to me inside? Others recommend, treat yourself as you would a friend, Unfortunately, I am also hard on them. If I have no understanding of my own mistakes, How can I have any for yours?… Continue reading Compassion?
Vulnerability
I unbutton my shirt and open the window, Revealing the dirty parts of my heart. With my words I display my flaws, Forming a mirror in which is a reflection of you. Courage departs to doubt, Did you hear me? What do you see? Old wounds lying bare, scabbed partially bleeding, Each disclosure rubbing them… Continue reading Vulnerability
Future Me
This heavy sheath, Draped around my shoulders, Pressing against the curves on my hips, Pulling on the skin beneath my arms, Tugging on my second chin, Hate oozing out from within. Unable to perfect my goals, Self-discipline steps out for a meal, Dictating how I feel, Not giving up, But not getting there. As my… Continue reading Future Me
Abusive Relationship With My Mind
I'd been enmeshed in a co-dependent mess, It was like I didn't even exist, We were a dysfunctional whole, Wherever I went, there you were, Until a small insignificant moment made me see the toxicity of our relationship, It wasn't the mental or emotional abuse I'd enured for years, Nor the isolation, insecurity, fear, or… Continue reading Abusive Relationship With My Mind
Scary Story
Just got home, it’s late, and story time, No this isn’t your run of the mill nursery rhyme, It’s the kind that will keep you up at night, Not rated R but contains strong self hate that may incite fright, The after 10 delight, The they judge you, can’t share with you, don’t want to… Continue reading Scary Story
Shaynanigans 