Where do you find compassion? Where does it hide? Why do I have so little? Why am I so mean to me inside? Others recommend, treat yourself as you would a friend, Unfortunately, I am also hard on them. If I have no understanding of my own mistakes, How can I have any for yours?… Continue reading Compassion?
Category: Perception
Vulnerability
I unbutton my shirt and open the window, Revealing the dirty parts of my heart. With my words I display my flaws, Forming a mirror in which is a reflection of you. Courage departs to doubt, Did you hear me? What do you see? Old wounds lying bare, scabbed partially bleeding, Each disclosure rubbing them… Continue reading Vulnerability
Future Me
This heavy sheath, Draped around my shoulders, Pressing against the curves on my hips, Pulling on the skin beneath my arms, Tugging on my second chin, Hate oozing out from within. Unable to perfect my goals, Self-discipline steps out for a meal, Dictating how I feel, Not giving up, But not getting there. As my… Continue reading Future Me
Faith and Fear
The topic tonight was Belief and Doubt or Faith and Fear. The lady introducing the topic altered the way I look at these two things. She discussed how she heard a speaker once talk about how these two things were inextricably linked. Which is totally contradictory to how it has always been presented to me… Continue reading Faith and Fear
Splash of Humility
The pool, arrogantly calm, Judging the sea for its waves, Until someone jumps in, Turbulent and humbled again.
Energy Storm
A thick foggy haze of fuck you, surrounds me, The forecast had not predicted disturbed energy, Perhaps there was a red sky this morning, Or other signs that this was forming, The disease under my skin, My allergies of people kicking in, Itching to run, My emotional clouds smothering the sun, Zero visibility through this… Continue reading Energy Storm
Eternal
No offspring to carry me on, Once I die, what's left of me is gone. Two certainties in life, death and taxes. The fear of not being remembered, A struggle unique to humankind. A tree worries not what happens when it's time to feed the worms. The tree thinks not about the futility of life,… Continue reading Eternal
Chicago River Dreams
The most memorable trip I took as a kid was to Chicago with my mom and sister. My mom was there for work, and my sister and I were permitted to tag along. We got to miss a week of school, with a week's worth of homework packed in our bags. My sister and I… Continue reading Chicago River Dreams
Appreciation Before Depreciation
Heart that beats without distress, Comfortable nights rest, Bending with ease, Walks with pain free knees, Driving with no restrictions, Healthy with no addictions, Bed that is safe and warm, Umbrella during a thunderstorm, Thoughts and no headaches, Clear skin without outbreaks, Food to eat, Shoes on feet, Free without a case, An affectionate embrace,… Continue reading Appreciation Before Depreciation
Scary Story
Just got home, it’s late, and story time, No this isn’t your run of the mill nursery rhyme, It’s the kind that will keep you up at night, Not rated R but contains strong self hate that may incite fright, The after 10 delight, The they judge you, can’t share with you, don’t want to… Continue reading Scary Story
Shaynanigans 