I tried to drink away the feeling,
But there I was still dreaming,
Moved but not yet moving on,
Maybe if I write this it’ll pass and be forever gone.
Standing in the driveway staring up at the sky,
Wondering if I’d know you if you passed me by,
Digging deep and sweating,
Sun beats down…forgetting,
How it felt to have you by my side,
I’d claim it no longer hurts…but I’d lie.
Working hard to better…the person that was so easily tossed away,
But who I am now is a mystery,
So I turn it over…and over…and I pray,
Make me whole again…
I try to date but I’m not able,
Frankly I’m too unstable,
In the mirror I see nothing good looking back at me,
Nothing like the me in your eyes I used to see.
Another sunset…marveling at the beauty,
Ocean breeze and all the things that move me,
But is it real when you have to experience it alone,
Will any place without you ever feel like home?
Working hard to better…the person that was so easily thrown away,
But who I am now is a mystery,
So I turn it over…and over…and I pray,
Make me whole again…
Shaynanigans 