Sometimes it can be so hard not to count the days away. I don’t mind my job. Most days, it is rewarding, and I enjoy the people I work with. I like figuring things out and helping people. However, like most people, I would still rather not be working than working. For this reason, I often catch myself wishing away the days till the weekend.
I am in a long-distance relationship. I haven’t seen her in eleven years. We’ve been officially together since September. In April, I get to see her. It is tough not to wish away each day, each week, and each month until I get to spend time with her.
I am in school, and I often wish away the days till an assignment is done, until the class is done, until the degree is done.
When it is cold outside, I wish away the day(s) until it is warm again. When I finish breakfast, I wait until I can eat again.
As humans, or at least for me, I’ll speak for myself. It takes work to stay put. To stay in this moment and not wish for another one. It is the reason I work so much on mindfulness. It is a constant battle needing to retrain my brain to be still. The message of 2023 that hits hard for me is that today is the oldest I’ve ever been and the youngest I’ll ever be again. That statement is so profound to me—especially in the second half. I’ll never be as young again as I am now, yet my brain wishes it away.
Soon I will officially be middle age. I remember being 22 and looking at people in their 30s, thinking how old they were. I look at Lebron James, who looks like a grown-ass man. Yet he is younger than me! How is that possible? Young people now look at me and see this old-ass person. I see the wrinkles now around my eyes, but I don’t see the age. Do you ever see the age?
Anyway, I don’t know what I am rambling about. It is 6:30 am on Tuesday, technically a Monday, since it is my first work day this week. Let’s start the day. Let’s go into it, remembering today that we are the youngest we will ever be again. Let’s appreciate our youth. Let’s relish today.
Wishing you all peace in present moments today.